You Don't Know Me [2009]

by Wes Carroll

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Production began in early 2007 on this CD, meant to be finished later in the year. Joke's on us! in 2009 we declared it DONE, except of course that we then spent two more years "finishing" it.

Here's the album some say we should have released as is.

If you want the spit and polish of the 2011 release, with a thousand little things changed (some say "improved"), well, that's here too! See the links to the right.

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released July 12, 2009

All songs (c) Wes Carroll, except Angel (c) Cynsa Bonorris and Wes Carroll, and Something Sometime (c) Austin Willacy and Wes Carroll.

Sound recordings (p) 2009 Jonathan Minkoff for MinkoffARTS.

Album art by Julia Tenney.

Photography and Photoshopry by Zalman Stern.

Art direction by a team of monkeys taking a break from banging out a play by some dead Scot.

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Wes Carroll San Francisco, California

Mouthdrumming.com beatbox instructor turned math coach for gifted high-schoolers (wescarroll.com) completes long-awaited solo album, claims "Polymath" achievement.

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Track Name: You Don't Know Me [2009]
Was our decision justified?
Would going back destroy our pride?
Was there more to this ride than ups and downs?
Will we discover love again?
Can we fall back and just be friends?
Or is this the end of all the good we've found?

But each time I try to find our place
You always show your fighting face
And all I can do is shut down for the night
I feel my balance ebb away
Along with all I want to say
My answer for today is "Fine, you're right."

You don't know me.
You don't know me.

Each decision I review
Just vindicates my sense of you
You know it's true: I'm through, and so are we
A broken vow, a lonely beer
I don't know why it wasn't clear
Your failings came from fear and not from me

Finally I've come to see
That you are not the one for me
But I just can't believe I never knew
(That) each thing you said you didn't mean
Each time we fought and made a scene
Was an argument between just you and you.

You don't know me.
You don't know me.
Track Name: Canyon [2009]
We're made from different stuff, and sometimes that's tough,
but you're finding out my hidden places
Seems like it takes so long, but that makes us strong,
Discovering your subtle graces
You ask if you look good with your hair down
By now you know that that's not why I stick around

You reach out across the canyon
Each time the gap's a little less wide
You reach out across the canyon
That's the reason why

We look for most our lives for husbands and wives
But they never know us when they meet us
We seek the life sublime but that takes some time
They take a while to complete us
You ask if you look pretty in that gown
But we both know that that's not why I stick around.

You reach out across the canyon
Each time the gap's a little less wide
You reach out across the canyon
That's the reason why

So many pretty faces were such a waste
They fell away and slowly faded
You're made of different stuff and that's why this love
Has melted all that once was jaded
You ask me to compare the love we've found
You'll find my answer in the way I stick around

You reach out across the canyon
Each time the gap's a little less wide
You reach out across the canyon
You make it seem it's possible to fly
You reach out across the canyon
Each time the gap's a little less wide
That's the reason why
That's the reason why
Track Name: Run Like Hell [2009]
One more day. Another day closer
Close to perfection but farther and farther from me
You don't know what you're looking for
But you know what makes you afraid
Now I know what freaks you out about the plans we made

You know how to move. You run like a spark
But you get the hell out every time you all short of the mark
Don't run away even though you can
This time you could just stand strong
Take my hand and breathe and just hang on

And run like hell in the other direction
If you believe, you can chase it down
Take what you got and make the correction
That's how you keep the sky from falling down

Take a breath. Wipe off your face
Put down the paint that no one but you can erase
Look at yourself: no longer a child
You can get what you need if you trust that you're gonna be fine

But you don't have to be in that fable
You could be good in a different song
I don't think you know that you're that strong

So run like hell in the other direction
If you believe, you can chase it down
Take what you got and make the correction
That's how you keep the sky from falling

Run like hell in the other direction
Be the one to chase it down
If you believe then it's not a defection
That's how you keep the sky from falling

Run like hell in a forward direction
Take my hand; we'll chase it down
Look what we've got and make the connection
That's how you keep the sky from falling down
Track Name: Something Sometime [2009]
Broken streetlight, remembered perfume
Favorite t-shirt: imagining on you
Broken bottle, brick and concrete view
Lonely storefront: the glass I'm looking through

Bumpy sidewalk, weeds are pushing through
Pixie flower brings me back to you

I'd like to do something sometime
Something sometime
Anything anytime
I'd like to do it with you

Ribbon roadway, trees are racing
Wind is screaming like razor punk guitar
Empty starlight: the brightest thing by far
Night air circles alone inside the car

Final hilltop; city comes in view
Crest that gentle curve, it brings me back to you

I'd like to do something sometime
Something sometime
Anything anytime
I'd like to do it with you

My mind is always feeding my distraction
Imagination heeds a higher call
Little things just trigger recollection
You're always at the center of it all

Little pieces of wishful thinking
It's just a daydream

I'd like to do something sometime
Something sometime
Anything anytime
I'd like to do it with you
Track Name: Signs [2009]
Sometimes random walks in open clearings
Sometimes reflecting on my Brownian life
Bumping into nascent possibilities
Sometimes searching for another path

Maybe everything has hidden meanings

Patterns give themselves up before us
Insight laid out before our casual eyes
Connection: warp and weave of human being
Looking together for the meaning in signs

Everyone wants to see a hidden meaning
Everyone, everyone, everyone, everyone

So here we stand, hand in hand
We're watching for the signs
So here we stand; hold up your hands
We're waiting for the signs

We hope that we are more than automatic humans
More than bloody, bony, brainy beasts
We hunger together for inspired purpose
Look up, look in, bow down and share this feast

Everyone just wants to have a sense of meaning
Everyone, everyone, everyone, everyone

So here we stand, hand in hand
We're watching for the signs
So here we stand; hold up your hands
We're waiting for the signs

Here where the hero stands alone
Constant in trust of what he knows
Even here we band against the unknown
And conjure a parent-king in the sky, watching from his throne

So here we stand, hand in hand
We're watching for the signs
So here we stand; holding up our hands
We're waiting for the signs
So here we stand, hand in hand
We're watching for the signs

Here I stand, with head in hands, as you look up for the signs
Track Name: I Tried [2009]
If I tried to show you,
tried to know you,
made a show of the things below you
Would you know?

If I tried to meet you,
tried to you reach you
Oh, all the things that I could teach you
Could you go?

I tried so hard to hold you
I tried so hard to stop your crying
I tried so hard to make you see the light
Oh, lord, I tried
Oh, yes, I tried

If i tried to tell,
to unshell you,
Oh, I promise you I wouldn't try to undersell you
Do you know?

If I tried to strut up,
Be a cut-up,
Oh, I wouldn't blame you for telling me to shut up
Do you know?

I tried so hard to hold you
I tried so hard to keep you away
I tried so hard to think of what to say
Oh, lord, I tried
Oh, yes, I tried

I tried so hard to hold you
I tried so hard to stop your crying
I tried so hard to make you see the light
Oh, lord, I tried
Oh, yes, I tried
Oh, lord, I tried
Track Name: Animal [2009]
Just face the facts
You can't go back
Every time you reached inside, you found
A yearning you can never turn around

You are an animal
You are an animal like me

Your lovely mind
So clean inside
But the chaos that your body sees as art
Is the reason that I've loved you from the start

You are an animal
You are an animal like me

You fuss and fight
But you know I'm right
Your platonic mask would surely have you hide
The fire in your gut you can't deny
is all that keeps us warm inside

You are an animal
You are an animal
You are an animal like me
Track Name: Sensitive [2009]
One glance
is a poem to you
but I can't see through your subtlety
One glance
is not the right way
to get me to say what I feel

Anything you want, anything you need
Anything you want, anything you need

You said
You gotta tune in
You gotta be incredibly sensitive
You said
When you're with me
You just gotta be sensitive

Anything you want, anything you need
Anything you want, anything you need

You never gave me a reason to doubt
That you wouldn't just walk out
But then again, I could only ever guess
You never gave the thing that I need
That you would just talk to me
Apparently, with you, more is less

You said
You gotta tune in
You gotta be incredibly sensitive

I didn't know you meant words are cheap tokens
I didn't know you think promises aren't spoken

But anything you want, anything you need
Anything you want, anything you need
Track Name: Think Of You [2009]
A pair of clouds is gathering way high
They're headed east across the bay
I can't help but think about the dreams in which I float across the sky
I bet they're happy just to spend a pretty day side by side
Now it seems like they aren't going anywhere
The wind has changed but I don't think they care
Bet the view is damn near perfect up there
Seems like all I ever do is think of you

And there's a bumblebee hovering near a perfect bloom
It's like he's worshipping the smell he's floating in
It's times like these I think about our crazy busy lives
And how I'd rather just spend a pretty day by your side
So there's work to do but beauty to take in
And I think I know which one of these will win
The sound of tiny wings makes for a perfect afternoon
Seems like all I ever do is think of you

On a field of sun and grass and lazy summer birds
Two trees provide the only shade for miles
No one recalls a year before their sturdy branches spread proud
They've stood together all the while
And we all know that they aren't going anywhere
It seems they'll stand forever side by side
I'll bet their fruit is sweet beyond compare
Seems like all I ever do is think of you
Track Name: Angel [2009]
Never thought I could be an angel
Maybe why I'm having a hard time walking this straight line
Trying to chart my path with no direction north
Turning and turning in circles
Trying to hang on to what I've learned

Just when I started to think it was over
I see that train coming around the bend
Looking so sweet I'm tempted to board
Decision coming around again
An open door I have passed before

I'm not trying to be an angel
It's more like I'm trying to lift myself up from the smoke
Far too easy to get distracted
Voice at my shoulder keeps on pulling me aside
Pushing me in circles
Barely hanging on to what I've learned

Just when I started to think it was over
I see that train coming around again
Looking so sweet I'm tempted to board
Decision coming around again
An open door I have passed a hundred times before